about this satnite

Hi, it's Saturday night now. I'm just sitting here, in my bed room. Stuck in this place as always with laptop and a cup of hot coffee. I don't wanna talk about happiness now, i wanna talk about a weird feeling. Frankly, i feel lonely. I'm not gonna say sorry for being real. This loneliness is not because i haven't boyfriend, but.. i just feel like i have nobody to talk to and also i have nobody to hear all my complaints. Well... This is the stupid part of me. I have god, of course. You don't have to remind me about this.

When almost every girls get ready to go out with the boys, friends or boyfriends. I didn't do anything! hahaha. Sometimes i feel jealous when my sisters in law this house is get ready to go out, to enjoy the night. I give my smile for them and just say.. "take care, okay!"

But that's alright!

I don't wanna pretend like i'm super happy just stay at home like this almost every Saturday night entire my life. But.. I don't feel so sad too. Maybe i just feel bored. Maybe.