Not a candidate

It’s funny how people come and go into someone else’s life easily. Is it so easy for them to forget all the thing that they made, they spent, they shared, they gift, yea whatever they’ve done together. It’s funny when how special is someone for your life, but in the end, they just nothing. You start make a distances, you used to talk to him/her, you’re not any longer text him/her. It’s funny when you know all the things about someone, but at last, he/she just a stranger in your life. It’s really fcking funny!

         When you absolutely don’t wanna know about someone’s life anymore, you start to think to make a ‘move’. And you finally see the new ‘candidate’ to fill your day with. You ask anything, you talk with him/her every day and think about him/her almost 24 hours every day. Do you ever feel so weird with it? Is it seems like a holly-fcking-shit-deja-vu? Or seems like a sweet-deja-vu? I don’t know exactly about what should I think or what should I feel.

  

       I know maybe someone is not clearly forget about the past. Sometimes they maybe think about the ‘ex’ and about the sweet memories. But.. I think that must be so much hurt for the ‘candidate’ when you hold their hand but all you see is not him/her but the ‘ex’.

This is one of my big question.

I’ve loved someone and do this weird circle all over again for many times. But now I’m so tired. Should I do this again? or should I stop and wait until the right one is finally arrive and pick me up? I have no idea.